subconciously,
By the 7th hour, I was totally disorientated.
It was more than the complete lack of sleep, more than the complete lack of faith that I could get a simple task done, more than the mental burden I've imposed upon myself and more than anything - the fact that I'm on my first major feature film set.
It came to a point where I was no longer expected to get a simple task done by the crew, that they'd prefer 'the other guy' to do it.
On this set, as long as we have yet to wrap up filming for the day, there was no time to enjoy a mental breakdown just so you could get a consolation from a fellow crew or cast member; no time to feel sorry for yourself even. This is the harsh reality no one had warned me about. I expected the worst when I started, and clearly everything has surpassed my every expectation.
And the worst is not over yet.
Sure, little things like a word of encouragement from the actress and attempts from the other departments to make you smile help aid the process, but there are times I felt I could do with a little break in the toilet, and to burst out in tears just to let everything out of the system.
But there's simply no time.
5 comments:
Hey, hang in there. This IS the harsh reality on set. At the end of it all, you'll take away so much more than you had expected as well.
hugs.
really so bad?
take care eh?
let's have coffee after the shoot and also my exams lah.
:)
sayang, shoobs, sayang..
i miss you!
It's shitty now, but you'll get so much out of it. Remain upbeat and continue to peservere and you'll go far.
thanks guys. :) it meant alot to me reading these.
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