morgueville,heartland living.

mid terms were dreadful. but expected. oh well.


i no longer feel that eagerness for weekends. it is either that i know the end is drawing nearer or that there is moreworkmoreworkiamgoinginsane.
i am trying to remain positive. i really am.
i've got my art coursework that's breathing down my neck. 8 bloody huge panels to complete by the end of july. and that's just the beginning. odac agm is finally here and i've got proposals to hand in, souvenirs to do, slideshows to create, thousands of photos to see. econs to burn into my brain. lit readings to read.


the only way that keeps me going is ntu's school of arts, design and media. finally. i can't help but wonder if i studied hard yet recieved absymal, disappointing results, rejected visual communication and an aep entrance test last year, and stayed on in a boring hougang college - and all these for a reason i've been struggling to find out. and best of all, they offer digital film-making. and script-writing. only an intake of 100. and i must, no matter what it takes, get my arse there.




"i really need you to understand. that this is not an easy decision to make. and ultimately, i hope it is the best for you and me. i do not see the point of going into one where i can't afford the time and energy for the necessary input, and thus leaving you on the lurch. it is not going to be easy, i know. but let us try, shall we? it is going to be hard for the both of us."