morgueville,heartland living.

"the blues are because it's been raining too long, and you're just sad. suddenly you're afraid and you don't know what you're afraid of. Do you ever get that feeling?"


ahh. school's starting. cleaned every inch and corner of my humble abode so that i can start filing every single piece of notes into their respective subjects. i love that monica gellar disorder in me. meanwhile, i'm aching all over. but i feel accomplished. i just realised it's going to be my last four months before i can throw away my uniform because school will be officially over for me. at least for two years. and no i'm not looking forward to that boys home.


i can never grasp the comprehension some of my male friends have over that green lie. 'ooh i want to be in ocs, in this, in that.' maybe i never had that sort of dreams before. planes are claustrophobical and a collosal source for sound pollution. and really, the fact that we men are on the war front saving the womenfolk and the world wasn't very appealing. i was much more ambitious. i'm more ghandi. no doubt the thought of moving away from my comfort zone next year still haunts. but i guess when the day finally comes it's more of a stupid burden. that the world's waiting impatiently for me whilst i find myself fighting the brainwash at tekong.


i'm dangerously ambitious. i want to work in new york. and i can see myself there. the thing with me is, when i want something, i can see myself with it and one day, i know i will get it. that's how i work. so subconsciously you work towards that. and you try not to fall off the cliff by indulging idle thoughts.


believe it.