play/pause

I am looking for the rewind button.
The backspace key on my laptop doesn't work anymore, so I can't go back.

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These are days when I just stare into the empty spaces on my Post-its notes, with hundred and one unchecked boxes in my mind and no determination to complete a single one of them. Some of them are disgustingly overdued.

These are days when I cannot be bothered to read new books, discover new obscure bands, watch films or write an entry that's even half as remotely interesting as the Yellow Pages.

These are days when I hate waking up to the smell of rain, and that same old thing called routine.

These are days when nothing excites me more than Honey Stars or Luncheon Meat with Fried Egg Sandwich.

These are days when I want to make replies - text messages, emails, letters - but I just don't know what I want to say.

These are days when I want to reorganise my wardrobe, my table, my mailbox, my playlists, my photos, my eating habits, my non-existent schedule, my every little damned thing in this my-so-called-fucking-life-with-the-capital-L. Throw everything out and put them back nicely and neatly just so I can feel a little satisfied.

These are days when I realised there are so much variations of jadedness, and I am sick of every single one of them.

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I am looking for the forward button.
But I can't find it.