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had my first official odac execo meeting today.

well, it's pretty much the same back in marist, just that now it's a whole new set of people to work with. and it's the first time i see gary so serious. my gawd. he reminded me so much about edwin. in fact much more serious. oh edwin was my president back then. was just dekaping on gary's blog about how much my committee actually do contribute. remembered when i went for the execo interview, he asked me why not aim for the president post, rather than the supposedly low public relation post. the interviewee asked me this, too, given that i had experience being a vice-head. but you cannot comprehend the amount of time you have to spend on everything under the sun. your people, your activities, your responsiblities, your near-impossible deadlines for proposals. you have to communicate with your people, settle disputes, have countless meetings with your teachers. plus your studies, too. and the image you have to portray to the entire school, which i usually do not give a damn about.

it was a great experience. but i don't think i'm up to it. i prefer to keep to my limits and do my best. and i wanted to be the PR head because i feel that's what i can do. i know what i'm made of.

there are different kinds of people in a working environment. i've seen it before. you get the slacker. you get the dark horse. you get the real-worker. you get the know-it-all. you get the mediatator. you get the opposition party. you get the joker different kinds. and sometimes, cliques will formed.
it may seem like a journey of a zillion lights years, but it will be over before you know it, and then you will start hoping you would have done some things other way. but it's too late.

hey gary! really, i have never seen you so serious before, not even in class. but really, i hope no one in the execo reads this (maybe i should delete this post soon. ugh hate public blogs.) well, i have the feeling you have doubts about your president. cos you show it out distinctively. you can say it out but..i hope you meant what you said. i have to be honest with you. i feel that you have this way of doubting people. which makes people uncomfortable sometimes. or maybe it's just me. so it kinda give the other party the impression that you have extremely high expectations for what he do. which will then limit his ability to do things well. though one thing i can count on you is how you push people to do their best. be it during class or canoeing. not exactly cheerleader style, but still, we become disciplined. so i always see you as the disciplinarian. though honestly, i can't believe you are one, but don't worry, i can accept that. (and i know you hate it when i talk about that 'model-odacian', you know who i'm talkin about eh, but i really can't stand it! accept that.) my weakness is i can get easily out of focus, and i know you will remind me. but anyway, think it's great to have you as a good friend. put your depression aside, by smiling! it is easy. i mean, you always do that in class, right. with all our nonsense. so at the end of the day when you're all alone, before you start becoming really depressed, think of positive thoughts! talk to people. you can talk to me. or anyone else. like her. muahah.

and i can't believe you say we have nothing to contribute except positive feedbacks! odac is not all bout activities k! as much as your committee is important, the rest of the other committees are equally important. its like a table with 4 legs. well, your committee can be that one-legged table if you want. public relations is more important than you ever think it is alright! it's just we have different scope to yours. but still, we are all complement goods!

i still can't believe you just said that!